School Jitters

I got the school jitters big time! Just a little coaching needed for how not to get too involved in school politics but stay closely connected to Lula.  It’s a tricky thing, this parenting school aged children.  I don’t generally like being around large gaggles of parents, but then all of a sudden, I’m there, talking about mediocre non-stuff and feeling like the plastic mask has somehow melted back on my face and I’m suffocating.  Yes, we went on a little vacation.  Summer was great.   Oh thanks, I bought those at the Gap for her.  Oh yes it WAS unseasonably cold this summer.  Really not looking forward to the day to day polite chit chat about the weather.  And every year actually after every break, I resolve to do no more of this kind of energy wasting, but there it is again.  Social norms pushing up against me.  And sometimes I give in, and sometimes I hide and sometimes I show up, just the way I am and ask really intrusive questions.  Heya ____ what’s new and exciting with you?   Working on any kind of personal projects? How’s the marriage?! Speak much?  Are you in therapy? Oh meee??  Yes, actually, I’ve seriously been fantasizing about joining the circus, singing, clowning, then the trapeze…in that order I think.  No not Lula! She’s into classical violin, I’m talking about ME!!!  No, really, I’m not joking whatsoever.   Then I’ll hopefully gain the reputation of being the nosy mom who asks really personal direct questions and to avoid me at all costs unless you’re willing to get right into it.  God willing.